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Hello!


I have been blown away by the comments, and private messages I have received since I sent out the link. I sent it to a few, then a few more. Then others were sending it on. I thank you and am humbled that you would still be interested in this journey. Everyone has been so supportive. Many of you mentioned different conversations that we have had in the past and I am still very thankful that Graham's life has impacted so many. A few of you mentioned that you were going to try to live a little more "Out Loud". I would love to know what you are doing to accomplish that so keep me informed.


Now I am going to do one more thing, more for me than for you. I am going to try to explain the getting behind thing. While I am explaining my take on it, I hope it also helps you understand why I have, for lack of a better word, retreated.

It's funny how I categorize my life now. I can't say I ever did this before, but I do now. I have the life before Graham got sick, his remission and relapse, and after he died. Those are my categories. Units of my life story. In those units are chapters and pages. We all have these units, chapters and pages. If you are very lucky in life you find friends that have similiar chapters. Similiar pages. You may get really lucky and have a bunch of these people. The latter is my case.

I can not tell you the people out there, reading this, that I consider a friend. Those people I know I can call right now, whether I have talked to you lately or not, who would be here in 10 minutes no matter what it was I needed. Most people have a few, I have bunches! And I could never tell you, or show you in this lifetime, but my thanks is as heartfelt as my grief.

Okay back to our books of life.....
My last chapter was when Graham died. My book stopped. Sure I have had some good times, some great times since then, but my book stopped being written from my perspective. I have just been waiting patiently for Jesus to come get me. I have not turned a page in 2 years. I am not beating myself up over this. I think its just what can happen.

So while my book was earmarked on that last chapter, you all continued writing. Boy have you been writing and printing and writing some more.

Some of you have gone through life-changing events yourselves, writing unbelievable chapters and pages. Some happy, some sad. Living lives that I am privelaged to even be a part of.

With all that said, and now that I have you on my page for a minute, let me tell you that catching up with the world is hard. It may be impossible. I am going to try and I believe that the next unit will be an adventure only God could give.


Recently God has opened up my book again, titled a new chapter and handed me the pen. He is telling me that no matter what page we are on, if we wait for others to be on that same page, we may never get another chapter. No matter how hard it is you have to keep writing the pages so you can close one chapter and move on to the next. I believe that is what this is about for me. I pray God uses it for His glory in some way. Without Him there would be no more pages.

So, I am going to the best of my ability, with His help, begin to write a sentence. I will commit to a sentence. I am hoping that the sentences flow together to finish a paragraph. I think the more paragraphs we are willing to write for God the better the book! I am very happy so many of you still want to be a part of my book!



Thanks again for "hearing me".

Living out loud!
Kathy

Genesis 50:20